When I get home I want to make a vow to myself to continue the growth I have made here. To keep learning and pursuing my passions, to continue pushing myself towards greatness.

Being in Barcelona has been like a dream come true. It has shown me how much I want to learn Spanish how true to my decision I need to be, and that Spain is very much a place I can see myself living in. I don't want to stop learning. No one in my family has learned another language apart from our given culture. To me it is about connection and about setting out to do something and completing it, about succeeding despite difficulty. What I have learned here is that no matter how hard it gets or how backwards things turn out, everything works. The hiccups open you up to change to new possibilities, they challenge your thought process and strengthen your character.
I have seen the beauty in myself. I can acknowledge my strengths and abilities and have come closer to who I am through this process. I know what I want. Traveling has challenged me, it has shown me that I yearn for community, support security and routine in a way I was adverse to before. I see the merit in these things now. And for my adventurous spirit I have found faith. I have seen the world open up to me and the universe conspire to help me along the way. It has all been a profound blessing, like that light switch in a dark room has finally been switched on.  I see myself now, less alone and scared and sad, I see myself worn from the struggle but beautiful in it. Full of hope and ready to face whatever comes along.
Potential is a seed you must nurture. I no longer wish to squander it or poison myself. It is time I believe I can be healthy and strong that I show myself I am this through the actions I take. Choosing to make better decisions that challenge my body, mind and spirit I can come more into myself. Because I am becoming. I have been more genuine and real through this process, I have done things I never thought I would. I have been brave beyond measure of my former self, and I am so proud. What impresses me most is my faith. How it has multiplied. How I approach more with a sense of ease. Sure I get anxious about logistics and I feel like I have to be dilligent and thorough with my plans, but I am acceptant of change and letting it go when I must, which is most of the time. I look forward to living life now because I know there is nothing I can't handle. What must be done will be done.
My hope is that I don't forget this. My hope is that upon returning home I work towards my goals with fervor and really accomplish what I want. My heart is full of gratitude for all those who have graced me with their presence. Who have opened up their hearts and minds and shown me a reflection of myself through their love and beauty. I am beginning to see in myself what I have loved about others all along. And it fills me with an unparalleled joy to know I have grown and changed in ways I never thought possible. To overcome challenges and become the kind of brave that I never imagined I could be. And this is just the beginning. :)