Denver

Yesterday was a good day. And I shall begin there. After my stint of travelling returning home has been quite jarring. I used to wake up in the morning and decide which part of the city and myself I wanted to explore that day. For the past month and a half its been a list of to dos and a set schedule that has put me in a whole other mind state. Now in Denver I am reveling in an entire day spent being lazy. I never got what it meant to relax into a vacation until this point. I woke up early and made breakfast and anxiously requested a schedule from Serina hoping to plot out the week. I wanted to know my place, what had been planned, what time I would have to do the things that needed doing, already plotting all the to dos I feel like I can now never get to at home. I will look into grad school, I will plot out the steps for that, I will contact the mechanic again, I will call the bank, I will access my funds, read my book, finish some blogs....blah blah blah. And then I said, NO today I will do nothing!!!! Instead I watched four episodes of My Little Pony (the new version first season) with new friends (Serinas kick ass roommates: Luke, Chelsea and Sam) ate MandM trail mix and then laid in bed for a few hours. Now at a cafe writing I couldn't think of anything better to do with a Sunday than to be this lazy. Tonight we will be going to a poetry slam, and Im debating whether or not to read at the open mic. Ive put Serina up to reading a piece and Chelsea and I are going to support her.

So back to yesterday being that I started with that and never really got into its greatness. Landed in Denver after the smoothest flight Ive ever been on, where I even got bumped up into the front row seats with extra leg room and got out of the plane first (never happens to me) Arrived early and saw Serina straight away just sitting down to wait for me. Big hugs!!! YYeahhh I'm here. Driving down the highway catching up I realise that its been a year since we've hung out and there was so much to catch up on. Even though we talk semi regularly there is nothing like presence and seeing whats going on in someones life. Serina is absolutely my best friend. She is the one person in the world who I feel like sees me and accepts me unconditionally and it doesn't matter what I say to her she holds it. We've gone through spurts of time not being in touch but it always feels so natural to be with her, to hang out, to sit in silence and drive in traffic, to make the same observations, to listen to yaysayer and sing off tune, to laugh about something ridiculous... like Jello. We both like Jello. "I want lime jello with pineapple and mandarin oranges but only on the top layer." "Well I want blue Gatorade jello in the shape of a river landscape with chocolate pudding with your green jello as the earth. We decide we are hungry now after a long nap that proceeded breakfast. We love big breakfasts and share in the joy of cafe outings and foodie moments. We go to Whole foods and get supplies for dinner, choosing everything based on feel. This peach wants to be eaten, I say...Oooh a spaghetti squash yeah lets get that.

Its Luke's birthday today, one of Serinas roommates. He is turning 27 which he exclaims mean he is going to die soon. I chuckle thinking if only he knew I was approaching 30. He is wearing a my little pony antique art nouveau style tshirt and watching a black and white Japanese film. We start to talk about Japanese films, then anime, then graphic novels and comics. He puts together a list of recommendations and I vow to do the same. I realise our suns are trined, his birthday being the 22nd as well and him being a virgo libra cusp. I am instantly in love with him. ,P A lanky social worker with several food allergies, a wealth of entertainment knowledge and a drummer in a band I have yet to listen to, he is overly enthusiastic and full of factoids, all of which are fascinating. My Aquarius mind delights. Serina laughs as we talk, I eat his gluten free brownies as his friends arrive with booze and Serina cooks up the spaghetti squash. This feels like home.

There is an ease about Denver that I adore. Just walking around that morning I felt like yes, this is the place. I don't feel at home anymore in SF. I feel like something has so vastly shifted in me and that the romantic bubble that I created surrounding the place has inevitably popped. My Aunt Jan tells me thats what happens when you leave and then come back. I never realized how much I left. Six months is indeed a long time and I dont know what of myself Ive come back to. I only know it doesnt quite fit to be here.

But back to Denver. All the guests are arriving for Tuff Luke's Movie marathon. A mix of ridiculousness which includes a 70s film called Equinox (it is the autumnal equinox after all) where a claymation devil disguised as a forest ranger and dark haired furry faced burt renolds type, sends other claymation monsters to get this wicca book these couples find in order to do who knows what across various earthly backwoods of California. So strange! It also involves several costume and character changes that illuminate a poor budget, plot and lack of acting skills, but is intended to be a horror film. It was the funniest thing Ive ever seen. After which, Chelsea, Serina and I went to a Drag King show at this spot called Eden. The theme of the night was Saints and Sinners and the host was this amaying gay Latino guy who must have changed about five times like a diva and made the best jokes. Ive never been to a drag king show so I didn't know what to expect. Most of the acts were two or more people and included skits and sexual exuberance. My favorite was two kings performing I would walk 500 miles with head lamps and suspenders on in which various choreographed moves were exuded in unison that likened work out postures. It was really fun. After which we went downstairs and danced to several pop songs, got dizzy and went home to sleep. On the drive there and back we were all singing loudly with the windows down, the warm breeze and the delight of being with good people. Such an amazing night. Tonight will be amazing too. I am in Denver after all. :)